I feel like I went into 2016 as a bright-eyed, bushy-tailed 20-something who forgot what ‘real life’ was like. I feel like I’m coming out of 2016 as a worn out, paranoid spinster (kidding) who will be sitting at the dinner table telling stories of what happened “back in my day”. There will be a chorus of “Shut up, Kendel!” and everyone will hope that it’s my nap time soon.
Because I will definitely nap if I am an elderly spinster.
I saw a lot of people checking in on their resolutions in the middle of the year. I thought about doing that too, but then I found out that I was pregnant and everything went out the window. My main priority became fitting a nap in around my work, social, and university life. I reverted back to being a baby for a while. A few months went by and I thought that I really should write something. Needless to say, that didn’t happen.
I saw that people were reflecting on their resolutions, so I thought that I would do it too.
My resolutions for 2016 were pretty simple. I wasn’t going to scale every mountain in New Zealand, find true love, or fly off to a foreign land. I just wanted to do something with 2016.
I wanted to be active in my life. I remember thinking that I didn’t want life to be something that happened to me. I didn’t want to just float through the year without actively participating in my last year at university. I chose the word active as my word for the year. Everything I did was supposed to reflect that word.
Travel: I actually did jump on a plane. Just like I said I would. I went to Wellington and Dunedin with my mother. It was the best trip (for me, at least). I almost didn’t go on this trip because of university work, but I’m glad I did! I had so much fun and I got to experience a part of New Zealand that was completely new to me 🙂 I have a trip scheduled for January as a ‘last hurrah’ before I reaaaally settle into motherhood.
After finding out that I was pregnant, I went on my own journey of sorts. I remember saying to my own mother that I wasn’t going to have kids. I said it over and over and over. I was adamant that becoming a mother wasn’t in the cards for me. Ever. The last time I said this to her was in the middle of April. I found out that I was pregnant in the middle of June. Needless to say, I have been on a journey to figure out what I want from life and how a child would fit into that picture. The only thing I’m certain of is that I haven’t been able to picture my life without my son. Nothing else beyond that matters.
College: The year started really well. I joined a group and went to meetings. I went to seminars and company walk throughs. I met people who were interested in the same industry as me, and it was amazing. It was…invigorating. I rediscovered my love for public relations for a second time. I studied online all year, so I only went to campus when I had to get books or I had a meeting. Everything changed again in the second semester. I was planning on returning to campus as a full-time student, but clearly my life had other plans. I swapped back to an online enrolment, picked up two more papers, and completed my degree online.
Work: I applied to job after job after job: law firms, private investigation firms, the police, and magazines. It was an interesting process – to say the least. I got to see how several jobs work and found interest in areas that I had completely overlooked or written off. I eventually got a job as a freelance writer for a wedding website. It is the best thing ever. I never thought of myself as a ‘girly girl’ but this job has helped me discover that side of myself. I love it all. I also love that I can write from home. It’s a win-win scenario.
Say ‘yes’: I have done a lot of things this year. I have travelled. I have finished a degree. I have done things that I have wanted to do. However, I think this year has taught me how to say ‘no’ more. I have learned how to stand up for myself and decide when I needed to draw lines in the sand with certain people. I have learned more about myself in the last year than I have in the last twenty-two years combined.
Be active: It went very well until I got pregnant. I was walking, even running, several times a week before I got pregnant. Pregnancy made me sick and sore. So sore that I couldn’t walk. I’m now thirty weeks pregnant, so a lot of activity is uncomfortable. I can’t walk or run without it feeling weird, almost like I have a ball bouncing around in my stomach. Now I like to take the dog for a walk on the beach, and that’s as good as it gets. Better than nothing, right?
I feel like 2016 has kicked my ass. In a good way.
It has made me stand up for myself and my beliefs in a way that I have never done before. It has made me look at my life and question what I really want and need from it.
I don’t know about you, but I’m excited about 2017.