Lately, I have found it a real struggle to get my thoughts down on paper; not just with blogging, but with anything. My assignments are suffering because I always think of a rad blog topic, and my blog is suffering because I’m too stressed about my assignments to give it the love that it deserves. It’s a vicious cycle.
I’ve been blogging the last four years of my life, but something just feels different. I don’t know if the time has come to move on from blogging or if I’m just in a creative slump. I’ve just reached a point where I don’t want to write anymore. Never did I ever think that I would be saying that, but it’s true. This space made me feel happy, but now it only brings about stress and kicks my ‘natural filter’ into overdrive.
I just need to take a step back and focus on my assignments for the next month or so. I have a tonne of them coming up and they are not the type of assignments that you can just finish the night before the due date. I moved to Auckland for a change and to really experience a new place, but I just feel like I’m living through a screen. I write my college notes on my laptop, I write my assignments on my laptop, I blog from my laptop, and I watch TV episodes through my laptop. Sure, I do get out of the house and frolic about, but it still feels like I’m spending far too much time on this thing.
I just need a break.
I honestly don’t know when (if ever) I’ll be coming back to this space, but I know that this is the right thing for me to do. You know the feeling of having a weight disappear from your shoulders? I’m getting that feeling right now. I need to take a step back and stop thinking about what would make a good blog post and what pictures I should be taking. I need to stop beating myself up over not replying to comments or being slow to reply to emails.
I just need to be me and not ‘the girl with a blog’ for a little while.